‘you’ll find someone’

shermeanuhh:

at twenty she tells me she’s been with the same boy for six years

first loves have a way of making us glow.
but with love or naivety?
you decide

all i know is that her unsolicited advice of
‘you’ll find someone’
made my fists curl and temper bubble
‘what do you know of love?’
i wanted to ask

what can be learned from getting it right on the first try,
in never having failed and finding the courage
to fail again?

‘you’re twenty…’
i wanted to remind her
‘…i’ve got seven years on you.’

but since when do years or numbers
or reason factor in with matters of the heart?

six years ago i loved like a whole different animal
six years ago i moved in this skin like a girl in a costume
& i wonder what man could love us both
the girl i was and the woman i am
they’re too different to have even been friends

at twenty i wonder if she could know what it means to know herself
& if she could have gotten that down so soon as well

i decide to bypass the anger
the pity
the bitchy
& the anger again
to tell her

‘that’s what i hear’

THIS.

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Deadly

shermeanuhh:

You keep the moonlight in your smile
like a knife in your boot
Unsheathing it at the most opportune moments
like when I’ve finally found the words to end this
Like when I’m about to breathe
“I can’t do this”
You’ll slip it out so smoothly,
touch me softly, kiss me
& then gut me with your smile

Hits.

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The purpose of fear is to lead you to question and comprehend why you feel that sense of fear in the first place. As you examine your fears, you will learn that all your fears are somehow false and based on misunderstandings. There is no truth or reality to your fears. Many fears remain buried within the Self, and if you never examine them, you remain at their mercy.

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I wish I wrote the way I thought;
Obsessively,
Incessantly,
With maddening hunger.
I’d write to the point of suffocation.
I’d write myself into nervous breakdowns,
Manuscripts spiralling out like tentacles into abysmal nothing.
And I’d write about you
a lot more
than I should.

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Be honest, brutally honest. That is what’s going to maintain relationships.

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amen. if you have something to say, then say it. too grown for that reading between the lines bull shit

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‘you’ll find someone’

Deadly

There’s a stereotype that black people are lazy. I don’t know if that’s true, but I know white people went all the way to Africa to get out of doing work.

I wish I wrote the way I thought; Obsessively, Incessantly, With maddening hunger. I’d write to the point of suffocation. I’d write myself into nervous breakdowns, Manuscripts spiralling out like tentacles into abysmal nothing. And I’d write about you a lot more than I should.

Be honest, brutally honest. That is what’s going to maintain relationships.

I wish I wrote the way I thought;
Obsessively,
Incessantly,
With maddening hunger.
I’d write to the point of suffocation.
I’d write myself into nervous breakdowns,
Manuscripts spiralling out like tentacles into abysmal nothing.
And I’d write about you
a lot more
than I should.